Four days shy of four months.

So much time has past since my last blog.  I have been back and forth with posting and have had a struggle with the idea of sharing with everyone.  I guess I have really enjoyed the time I am spending with Noah and although I know someone out there would really like an update, I just wanted to be selfish.

Noah will turn 4 months soon.  I just cannot express how sad I am that time is passing quickly by with no remorse on who it leaves behind.  It feels like it was just yesterday that we brought him home from the hospital.  He was little and fragile.  Now he is learning about the world around him and flourishing everyday.  Just the last 3 days has been an adventure for him.  He has learned to roll over from his back to his stomach and he spends all day perfecting his new skill.  His hands are amazing to him, he has discovered them and now swats at his toys, grabs everything close to him with a death grip, and chews on them with no end in sight.  He coos and attempts to reply when spoken to.  He looks attentively at the movement and the mechanics of the mouth when someone is speaking to him.  It is as if he would utter the exact same words if he could.  I love watching him grow and learn.

My handsome Johnathan has begun the new school year on a high note.  He has been chosen as the classroom ambassador, student counsel representative, and his classroom go to tech person.  He is really excited about all his roles and I am happy that he wants to be involved in his school and wants to help other students succeed in the classroom.  I am honored to have such a proactive child to call my own.  His test scores from last year's standardized testing have returned and Johnathan has scored exceptionally well.  He will recognized at an awards banquet later this month.   I am proud of him and all his accomplishments!

As for me.  I have been tired and dragging to find my footing.  I have spent just about the last 5 years running nonstop.  I was determined to get a college degree and be an active parent in my son's school life.  I juggled many hats and for those that know me, understand that just making it is not my normal attitude.  I couldn't just make it, I wanted to apply all my efforts to reap as much academic achievement has possible.  I ran myself to the ground.  I am tired.  Exhausted. 

But I am also extremely glad how everything worked out.